In The Darkness

Recently our son called he was in big trouble. This is the first time in his life he has asked for help. My son has mental illness, and indeed he is in big trouble. During one of his manic situations he spent all of his rent money and soon he will be homeless. During our conversation he told me he wished he could die.

I have attempted suicide, and know these kinds of statements can be warning, of suicide attempts. I am concerned, but not panicked. I think it is because God has taught me to wait, pray and seek knowledge of what to do.

I don't know how to help our son. I don't understand sometimes why his life is so full of difficulties; but yet I still believe God is in control. This picture of the fern reminds me of beauty in the darkness. Sometimes it is just faith that keeps us going. Trusting that God will guide us.

I am praying for my son. I don't know how to help him but an amazing calm is with me. God has the way to help my son, and while I seek him I will trust him to give me guidance with our son. I trust God also that even though my son is struggling, God can turn this around for a positive purpose. So I am calm. Please pray for our son.

And you, can we pray for you? Are you in the dark and need prayer. Please post. Thanks.

From The Darkness

This is one of my favorite pictures. When I downloaded it the screen was totally black. Yet, after enhancing somethings this picture showed up; and I love it. I like the deep contrast, and the sharp, but brilliant pine needles. It reminds me of life sometimes.
Sometimes I just don't understand things that happen. Yet, I chose to believe that God has something really lovely to bring from the darkness.

Our son is adopted. Because we have a daughter that had a bad kidney I asked to have a totally healthy child. I did not care about age, gender or ethnic background. Instead my son has mental illness, and brain damage.

Once I asked God why he sent me my son. His answer: "It's not about you, it's about him." We have had some very difficult times but I love my son, and my son has taught me a lot about God. I believe God brings beauty from the darkness. What do you think? Do you have an example you would like to share?