Where is the Peace?

In my home a strong work ethic was not suggested it was required. The fall out for myself is that I never can stop working. A voice in my head keeps telling me to get up on the treadmill of life and push to the max.

The results? At age 40 I suffered a nervous breakdown, and am on total disability for life. Did I learn? Well, I thought so: but that dialog is running hard in me now. My husband and invest and some of our investments are doing poorly. So my childhood voice is that we need to do more. While God's voice is telling me to slow down and trust him. That is the conflict; being able to give my life to God and trust him in what he is doing.

I have not won the victory of faith, but I continue to pray and seek to let God be in control.